Day Twenty Six

Mood: 6/10 - Functional day - washing, shopping, therapy. Back to normal
Energy: 6/10 - Reasonable

Withdrawals? None.

Ate/Drank:
  • Breakfast - Snack bar and grapes
  • Lunch - Turkey sliders & sweet potato
  • Dinner - Steak and broccoli
  • Drank: 2l water, tea

So. The elephant in the room. I'm on the home straight! What happens next? That's a damn fine question. I'm not really sure. I had a good therapy session tonight. No childhood memories, no ripped open wounds, and no tears today. Not that those weren't beneficial, but this was an easier, lighter session. Tonight we discussed the fact that perhaps the main factor in reaching out and starting up the therapeutic process for me again was my struggles with sugar. I sent an email enquiring about seeing someone on May 22nd and had my first session in early June. The notion that in 2 months I've gone from contemplating trying to figure out how to even begin to tackle the issue, to now where I have been sugarfree, so to speak, for 26 days, seems crazy to me. I really did not think I was able for this. Reflecting in the longer term was really beneficial to me. I am my own harshest critic so it was nice to consider the progress over the past couple months and pat myself on the back.






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