Day Twenty Nine

Mood: 7/10 - Happy enough today.

Energy: 6/10 - Could use more sleep!
Withdrawals? Not in a manner of speaking, but read on.

Ate/Drank:
  • Breakfast - Snack bar 
  • Lunch - Turkey & carrots
  • Dinner - Steak and chips
  • Drank - WATER WATER WATER WATER

Today was a test. The whole 30 should really be the whole 28. I have been on the home straight for about the last 4 or 5 days. If you'd asked me on 25/26, I would have said I was coasting to the finish line. That is all change! In effect, I have let my guard down. I have been ready to be finished for 2-3 days. Mentally, I keep thinking "what's the difference?". I've broken my addiction to sugar, that much is not in doubt. How I will be when it's reintroduced and in what form is to be seen, but clearly, I've not had a thing in 29 days so I can say that with confidence. So what is the difference between 27 days and 30? The only answer I can find that is keeping me honest over the past couple days is I said I would do the whole 30 and I am a man of my word. Ergo, on principle, I have to go the whole hog. But make no mistake, right now, it feels like a slog. 

I have come to some decisions on what I will and won't eat and drink going forward. For sure, my daily coffees are gone. I would drink two big coffees loaded with sweetener and they'd always upset my stomach. So they are gone. Bread is something I no longer want in the house. I feel it leaves me really bloated and it makes me really groggy when I eat it. I don't want easy, carb-heavy options in the house either. Things like pot rice/noodle lunch snacks, frozen pizzas, bagels etc. I haven't weighted myself but I can see in my face I have lost weight and I believe a big chunk of that is the carb reduction. Sweets are something as well that I think I can buy and have, but not buy, leave round the house, and pick & choose when I eat. I will always have a sweet tooth - it's just my preferred taste - but if I have grapes in the house rather than cola bottles, I can nourish my body rather than abuse it. 

That's the other thing about the vibe I have of limping across the finish line. The enthusiasm with which I greeted the start of this is now focused on the reintroduction phase - what that looks like, when it starts, what comes first, etc, etc. It's not that I am dying to eat a bar of chocolate, it's that I feel as though the purpose of the plan has been served and I am ready to move on. But I can't for another 24 hours or so!

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