Day Twenty Four

Mood: 7/10 - Happy out

Energy: 6/10 - Need more sleep!

Withdrawals? None.

Ate/Drank:
  • Breakfast - Snack bar and grapes
  • Lunch - Beefsteak and jacket potato
  • Dinner - Beefsteak, sweet potato and brocolli
  • Drank: 2l water, tea

Busy day today. Got up early and went to a wildlife park with Carra. Have found it hard doing these types of things because when you are out and about for long stretches, your options for eating that fall in line with this diet are minimal. That said, I managed to have a great morning wandering around seeing Lions, Zebras, Camels, Horses etc before a ride on the CHOO CHOO as Carra calls it, then heading home for a lovely evening having great chats with my cousin Camille.

I'm very conscious now that the home straight is at hand. We are 7 days away. I've been tempted the past few days. The kids have been having a lot of sweeties and that and it would be very easy to cave. I get the thought of "well no one will ever know". But I guess I would know and that's enough. I am enthused to get preparing for the final week and the reintroduction period. I am conscious that doing this so publicly leaves me open to judgement and as such people aren't shy of offering opinons. I have had people demanding I never drink diet coke again, people pointing out that fruit or snack bars are full of natural sugars so they should be out too, folk saying "you aren't just going to go back to normal are you?" etc etc. 

The most important thing for me to be cognizant of is that the only validation I need is from myself. I will drink diet coke again, I had never planned to not drink it for the rest of my life. I will eat fruit or snack bars because I like them, I have a sweet tooth and it's better I induldge it with a tub of grapes than a bag of sweets. No I will not "go back to normal" but equally no I won't continue to live this hyper restricted lifestyle. My goal in life isn't to lose a shitload of weight overnight or become a paleo eater. I am just trying to find firstly balance and secondly what can work for me. These 24 days and the 7 that remains have been a giant reset button. I will tread carefully as I move forward, but changes are coming. Exactly what? Not sure.

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