Day Thirteen

Mood: 5/10 - Started ok but tapered off.

Energy: 4/10 - Exhausted today.

Withdrawals? Not so much.

Ate/Drank:
  • Breakfast - Nakd bar.
  • Lunch - Chicken stir fry & sweet potato
  • Dinner - Venison burgers & chips.
  • Drank: 2l water, 4 cups of peppermint/detox/camomile tea.

So after my emotional evening combined with staying up far too late to watch Conor McGregor eat Floyd Mayweather up on the stage in Toronto, I was pretty wrecked today. I went to bed close to 1am. At this point I should mention something I haven't covered enough - I am sleeping much better. It still takes me a while to nod off, but no doubt that the lack of processed sugar, heavy carbs and caffeine in my system makes it easier for me to rest. That's been great. However, I sort of thought last night "well, since I'm sleeping ok, I'll stay up a little late and be fine". And I was. Until lunch. Then I went quickly downhill. 

Not much to say today really. Thursdays and Fridays are busy days in the Murphy house as they're the only two on which we are both in work, so there is much dropping of kids in different places and picking them up to be done, which means earlier morning and later getting home. We're stretched. And I can feel that tonight. I do still feel moderately better for having opened up last night, but still, without a plan on a way forward I feel somewhat in limbo and I'm not quite sure what lies ahead. 

I am satisfied to have reached day thirteen without slipping I have to say. Nearly at two weeks now, with no coke, no ice cream, no sweets, no coffee. If you'd asked me 3 weeks ago, I would have told you that wasn't possible. 

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