Day Seven

Mood: 3/10: I didn't like the human folk today. Really just wanted to be left alone. Little tolerance for customers and not much interest in chit chat with certain co-workers either.

Energy: 3/10 - Pretty fucked. I slept from 1030pm till 830am. I do not sleep for ten hours, but I did last night. 

Withdrawals? My head hurt and I felt nauseous for much of the morning. I took painkillers to get through the afternoon.

Ate/Drank:

• Nakd bar for breakfast (almonds, dates, pecans)
• Lunch - Steak & sweet potato fries. 
• Dinner - Chicken, chips and brocoli.
• Drank: 1.5l water, 4 cups of peppermint/detox/camomile tea

Today about sucked. The cravings were strong today. The lollipops in the office were calling me. Diet coke looked super tempting. I'm a little bored of drinking so much water, between water itself and teas which are essentially just warm and mildly flavoured water. We are at the point where the diet feels somewhat repetitive owing to the fact that I do not tend to eat a huge variety of vegetables. Nevertheless, I'll try and change it up a little in the next few days to keep myself at it. I have tried to pattern my eating in such a way that I can have things like steak or chips as 'treats' but truthfully I am used to treats being mountains of carbs and msg like curry & noodles or pizza. My body feels better for the more modest cheat meals but psychologically I don't get quite the same feeling of indulgence. Of course, it is my overly frequent indulgences that led me here in the first place, so at times like these I just remind myself that addictions don't bend, they break and it is these testing moments where if I am to make any progress, it is to be made. 

Still, I can't help but feel mostly satisfied. It is a full week since I had any artificial sugar or sweeteners or any coke or coffee. That is one hurdle conquered.